So we go to Walmart for our food shopping (wont be doing that again I assure you) Half way I get tired and because I'm full from the food I am sweating like mad too and feel ill. So Mark says I should go sit down. I do. In a McDonald's. Only 3 people are in there who quickly leave when I arrive...fair enough. I am sat at the very edge of the McDonald's minding my own business not bothering anyone - just catching my breath STRIKE TWO - I then get two idiots Id say young adults early 20's with white shirt vests and caps on come right up to me hover over me making snide remarks such as "whats this Dessert?" then things along the line of piggly wiggly or other stuff under their breath as they sit down BESIDE me not a few tables away right next to me and eat their meal as to taunt me. Laughing too with every bite. WHY? Why did they do that? I just wanted to be left alone. I felt like I was back at school when I got bullied by kids shouting 'belly's gonna get ya" and spitting or shouting other obscene things. I thought I was past that at 16 - I hate it and it really made me want to stand up and either punch the living daylights out of them or say something back. I was numb, I left before they could say anymore - I told myself it wasn't fair I was sick of it I told my husband when I met up with him again that i was going to write about this. Its annoyed me that much that 4 days after it still hurts and annoys me.
Would it have been acceptable for them to call me a Nigger being black? NO, would it of been acceptable to call me Anorexic if I was thin NO, would it have been acceptable to call me a Lesbo if I was gay NO, it wouldn't NONE are acceptable and neither is calling people fat bitch or hippo, or whatever applicable ANYWHERE to ANYONE. I am the size I am because I have chosen it - sure I'd love to lose some weight for my own health but I will never be what others in the world deem as beautiful. YOU KNOW WHAT - I DON'T CARE. I am beautiful the way I am, I know how to look nice and dress up and to look after myself. I just don't think its anyone else right to judge someone on whatever/whoever they are. I'm not hurting YOU by being FAT - Yes I'm fat - its how YOU respond to it that makes it wrong not the fact that I am. If your reading this and you know you have judged people because of this - really REALLY think about it. Just because our so called 'problem' is on the outside doesn't make it right for you to judge me or anyone else. Instead of trying to make comments to feel better about yourself why don't you try something POSITIVE and make the world a better place - SMILE for goodness sake, break the mould and tell someone they are beautiful or look pretty or if in doubt SAY NOTHING AT ALL. One day your voice will be like it was never heard because the comments are boring and overdone - so better change the tune.
Thanks everyone for reading I needed to get that off my chest. Bex
I agree 100% with you Rebecca! I dont go around shouting slurs at people who are black, ginger, anorexic or gay. Its just NOT accepted, but people seem to accept that its ok to be rude to fat people.
ReplyDeleteI am lucky that it doesnt phase me in any way what so ever, but that has developed over time and I have been lucky to have great support, but some people dont get that support I got and are put down even by their families!
And that is not right. Sadly though this is the world we live in and people will always want to hurt others!
Always completely crap when this happens, and trust me, it doesn't get easier if you lose weight, I got abused at a size 32 and I still get abused at a size 22. Unless you're a size 8 nowadays you're deemed fat, and fat itself is deemed a bad thing. It's pathetic, it's annoying and to the person it's happening to, it's souls destroying. They know nothing of you, of the life you lead, the food you consumes, the excersice you may or may not take and quite frankly it's none of their fucking business. To judge someone on thuer appearance is the lowest of the low. Just know that those who know you think you're amazing and those who judge have major issues in their lives, because to spend your life upsetting other people is not a life worth living. Tons of love to you, and fuck them all!!!
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